Depressed girl

[U Boat]

Hi, after so many senior bros giving advice, i guess all meant well.
What are going to appear below might have been mentioned by bros
before, i think these are the ways and it apply to everyone;

I guess almost everyone have a "dark period" time in their life,
face the fact and tell the truth when the time is right,
when u tell a lie, it take another two lies to cover the first,
the more u tell, the more u are confused.... The Truth then surface.
Yes! All guys are selfish, they will want to play around but will not
forgive their gf to fool around like them. Thats human nature.....
Best is to have a talk to ur current bf, if u think he is the guy who u will
spend rest of ur life with. Or else if he is not the 1, forget about telling
him the past(everything) as this might back fire[/B].... Reason being when two parties are
in relation, everything are nice, best of all in this World, even "fart smell nice" haha etc....
When relationship turn sour,all bad thing surface (which u experienced it now)
If a guy is really truthful to u, LOVE u, i will say he will not mind ur pass...
***This type of guy not really a lot left, maybe left a few who know what
really LOVE is.***
Last but not least, if ur current bf accept ur pass, congrates to u!
If not, do not be discourge. True LOVE will come to u one day.
Also bear this in mind, who ever can accept ur past(bf who going to become ur hubby), must not bring it(ur pass as subject) up during quarrel or any situation, cause this is the wrost and it will hurt u deeper ever....

I have write abit longer here as i know u r a nice girl, not doing it coz of branded goods. Forgive my bad english, Wish u find ur true LOVE soon......
PS: Do not give in to anyone who want/try to threaten u, once u give in- it never end( mentioned by 1 senior too)

[orneryjoe]

Girl... I think it's time you start thinking like a woman.

There's nothing disgraceful about sex work. Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do.

You are only making use of your erotic capital.

Read, for instance, Catherine Hakim's latest book -- Honey Money - The Power of Erotic Capital.

The important thing is to ensure that you are free of STIs. Go for a checkup or something. If you're clean, you're clean. (If you are not, get treated.) Your past is your past, and you don't even bother to have to forget cos it's nothing to be ashamed of.

Grow up.

[KlazzAct]

im not sure if this helps. if ur boyfriend truly loves u, im sure he will accept u no matter what. n im sure he will accept ur past if u were to one day tell him of ur dark secrets. cheer up TS .... u still young n do live life to the fullest...

[Joshzzz]

Guy accepting it if he really loves her is BS.
Not everyone can accept anything due to love.
Please don't use such generic arguments that are so passe.

Different people have different limits.
But living with this huge secret is going to be a true psychological burden in the long run. And new lies will have to be told to cover old secrets.

To the OP:
It is best to let him know the truth. Not for his sake but for your own sanity. If he can understand, then great, you found the perfect guy perhaps. If he cannot accept the truth, then you just have to accept it and move on. This is the price you pay for that past... whether or not you deserve it. Our pasts don't judge us... they simply have consequences.

I wish you all the very best!
Sincerely...

[Thanks]

Hi...

Friends of sbf, how have u been...

I hope life is treating u well ....

Regards

[CyberRod]

Life goes on for many bros here little sis... How's your issue...? Settled...?

[arsenal_84]

hope all is well for TS

[Thanks]

Hi...
Sad to say, I have not braced enough courage to face up with this issue..

Please trust me, I really have rehearsed it many times in my heart to tell him.. But whenever I see him, I jus do not bear to present this pc of hurting truth to him. Or maybe I do not wish to tear down my mask and let him know I was once a slut.

I wake up everyday hoping this problem would go away.

Think I'm going crazy soon

[goodpartner]

Originally Posted by Thanks

hi everyone.. its me again, depressed girl..

i am penning this in my car now.. feeling extremely emo..down..helpless..lonely..

do u ever a secret so ugly, that u can never share with the person u love the most.

i am still in a struggle of whether to come clean with my bf. few days ago (or last week), i posted a poll on whether guys mind their gf was an ex FL, here in sbf.

when i read the answers , it was like a knife, piercing thru my flesh. FL are sluts...whores...cheap... yes all this i agree. and yes i am cheap. i really wish FLs read that post. and to all the ladies who are FLs now, please stop. and those who are thinking of offering services. please DO NOT do that,please. one day, u will end up like me, hurting the man u love most. and no matter how successful u are, u will never erase this black mark. once a whore, always a whore.

over these few yrs, i have completely erased my memories as a FL. and selective memory is very powerful.. i have almost forgotten everything that happen during tat 1yr+. however it is very damaging.. i seem to have lost my true self. today i have everything a woman can wish for, but i dont feel happy at all. because i feel cheap.

i know i will never be happy again... but i dun wan my bf to suffer like me. guys can play around, but they never wan their girl to be loose. i wan to make an exit in the relationship with the nicest memory he has of me. but i wan to open up myself to him also, this is a very big dillemma im having now.
we never quarrel. yes we dont quarrel. u must be thinking, which couple dont quarrel? but we are both the sui bian kind. even if our opinion differ, we would not be so stubborn and jus talk it nicely. and we make it a point to say thanks and welcome.

sorry, i know my story is boring. but i really need a listening ear, i am really too vent up inside. now im crying like a mad woman in the car, and the love songs from radio made it worse. but i hope gers will learn from my story, and not step in my footsteps...

my first customer was my student's dad.

since i step out of sch, i have always took more than 1 job.
i have a full time job, and i would teach tuition at night. this student i have, he stays with his parents in a condo. i rarely see his mum, its always his dad around only. later, i learnt that his dad invest in shares and property. his mum runs a business in msia and returns on weekends.
it was a normal day. i went to his place to give tuition. when the tuition was coming to an end, a heavy rain started.
i : oh no, later can i borrow an umbrella ?
my student immediately shouted towards the door : daddy !!!!!!! get umbrella for teacher
few seconds later, his dad came in.
him : umbrella?
me : sorry uncle, i dont have a umbrella, can i borrow? i will return next lesson
him : ok
and he walked out (very cool)

around 15mins later, i ended the lesson. his dad was sitting in the hall, wearing a different outfit already.

him : hey i am going out for a while. u stay very near right, i can drop u.
me : huh , its ok la, i can take the bus. (but inside, i feel so happy. i am already falling asleep in class earlier, after a long day at work) tuition really drain my energy
him : its ok, lets go (still very cool)

it was very awkward in the lift. we hardly talk to each other. i cant wait the lift to reach the CP level.

he : tired ?
me : ok, used to it already
he : how many students u have nw?
me : Just sam and another sec 1 student.
he : then where got time for bf?
me : i dun have one yet, so am quite free.
he : huh? how come no bf? then his eyes started to scan my body (=.=)
lucky at this time, the lift door opened.

ever since after that encounter, he sent me back after lesson without fail. of cos i know lust plays a part, but he has never once lay finger on me. we only chatted like good frens in the car. slowly, i was attracted by his charisma, and secretly wish he is my bf. although we have age gap of nearly 20 yrs.

but this only last 1mth+. 1 mth later, it was also raining cats and dogs when he sent me home
him : rem the 1st time i sent u home?
me : yes, also raining heavily then
him : ya lor
erm, i always wan to ask u a qn but i worry you would get angry and stop giving tuition to Sam
me : no worries, what is tat?
him : u should know guys need to release right
me : haha yes
him : can u help me?

actually i never felt insulted at all, i jus feel he is jus honest, and nothing wrong with being honest.

me: ermm
him: actually i do engage gers to help me... but i hope to have u providing service to me on long term basis. at least i know u, and i know u are clean.
me : ermm
him : i only need you to use your hand thats all, dun worry i wont force u to have sex. and i will pay u $100 each time.

i must be crazy over $$ tat time.i actually was over the moon when i heard this. cos i only earn $40 per hr giving tuition, and thats hard work.

now i only need to use hand and he pays me $100.

me : erm, i can try...
him : thanks, i take u to a place.

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i see the carpark attendents approaching.., guess i sud leave the car since its already so late..

night night

Just notice this thread... TS are u gonna continue this story above? Where did he take you and what happened in the days ahead which led you to becum a FL? He became your pimp?

[goodpartner]

Originally Posted by Thanks

Hi...
Sad to say, I have not braced enough courage to face up with this issue..

Please trust me, I really have rehearsed it many times in my heart to tell him.. But whenever I see him, I jus do not bear to present this pc of hurting truth to him. Or maybe I do not wish to tear down my mask and let him know I was once a slut.

I wake up everyday hoping this problem would go away.

Think I'm going crazy soon

Maybe u can share with us WHY you think you need to let him know the truth about your past now that there are little risk of threat after the saga of photo being posted is over/settled?

Can't you just treat it like a bad nightmare of your life; i.e. NOT REAL, it NEVER happend, it was just a bad dream... and move on with your life?

Only when he really do find out one day, then you start to think of how to handle. For all you know, that day will NEVER come, since life is SHORT. Don't sweat over it now.

[Etude]

TS, don't insult yourself by calling yourself cheap. Please don't. There may be some reason why you have become a FL. For your information, FL are not cheap. They are someone's daughter after all and they have some financial problems that needs to be settled in short-term. FL's are only cheap when they take advantage of the session and make you fall into their KC and all that sob story. All of the uncles here are really concerned about your current situation. I guess all of us just wants you to have a happy closure and move on with your life. TS, if i were you, i get this over and done with by telling him the truth. Really, tell him the truth. If he leaves you.. then it's not to be. But he still can tolerate, then he's a keeper. So TS, time is ticking. Please tell the truth. like you said, it's the past. Time will heal all wounds and this applies to everybody including you.

[Thanks]

Hi..
I definitely wish he will never know this... But somehow my sixth sense tells me somehow someday he will know...
I have no intention not to trust my bf's buddy.. (hey if u are reading this, I'm saying the truth- I TRUST U)
me and my bf... We made a pact before. No matter what problem we have, we will communicate and solve it together...
And I can almost picture him forgiving me after knowing this.... But would he still be able to raise his head high? With a gf like me ?
And having the ball thrown into his court, what can I do to help him?

[Thanks]

Originally Posted by goodpartner

Just notice this thread... TS are u gonna continue this story above? Where did he take you and what happened in the days ahead which led you to becum a FL? He became your pimp?

Hey no, he didn't become my pimp... I'll continue the confession later..

[Iemanishere]

Dear sister, from a playful lawyer like me and by saying so.. If u young u may want to try leaving him and find one better, not it be good to let him know the only problem is that I do not know if u could take the remarks after.. Anything we brothers are here for you to help and give our take if needed.. God bless

[mussao]

Yeah,just report it to the police as it is blackmail, the end